Family and then theres me.

Happy holidays Everyone!! Sorry I havent posted in a while, Ive been been busy with the holidays and helping my family and spending time with people. I have had a great Christmas with my parents and brothers and had a amazing dinner. So todays blog I just really want to relfect on family and tradition. As kids we did the santa cookies and milk and always opened the only present on christmas eve, for some years now we do matching pjs from like marvel, DC, star wars, stuff like that, and have a prime rib for dinner amd of corse get blankets from grandma and grandpa. This year though I think we may have started a new tradition. Theres this family we have known for years and they have two very sweet kids. And for christmas eve we bought the turkey while they smoked it for hours. I could her angesl sing as I toke that first bite. After a while we where all playing games and I helped there son put togeather his lego set we have gotten him for christmas. It was just a nice night besides t...

Have you ever felt kinda proud that your family Served in the Military, but you also feel so sad because of you learned in High School how horrible the war is, well thats how I feel. Last night I talked to my great grandma about her family, I needed more info on her Family and Great Grandpa Grappin. She told me how her Grandmother was a Orphan in England and how she had a family and gotten married then came to Canada, whats really sad is that she died from cancer in 1944 when my great grandma was a kid. My great grandmas mom met her father during WW1 and he fought for Canada and had the first 3 children in canada and had the rest including my great grandma in Clio, Michigan. My great grandma told me how a few brothers out of 8 of her brothers have died from different types of cancer. Kinda made me wounder last night as I was watching TV if I should do those DNA test that is all over TV. I have been wanting to do it for a while because I do not know the other half of my biological f...

As I have written before about my depression, half the fun is having flashbacks. I was a pretty OK kid, but I had a lot of bad memories growing up. For example, when my maternal Grandmother lived in Michigan, she lived by herself in Flint. She work at a Laundry place for these old couple who have owned it for years. One night she was working late and the store got robbed and they held her at gun point. It scared me knowing as a kid something bad could have happen to her. about maybe a few months late she moved to taxes where everyone was. Lately though I have been having a flashback from when I was 8. I was reading a book for Genealogy and it said the best thing you can do is to write a time line about you, yourself. As I was writing it, for weeks I couldn't figure out what why I couldn't remember the year 2004, Its very personal to me and I wont spare you the details, but it sudden clicked with my flashback, and I guess i must have blocked out that whole year and memory, I w...

Last week my best friend from high school called me saying she got engaged, I thought I was going to cry for her and of course I was happy for her. She was in a relationship with her boyfriend for a little over 3 years and watching someone you care so much makes you happy. Over the phone she told me about her ring, which resembles a couple of her promise rings she has gotten in the past, lately myself I have been looking at jewelry ads, I do not know if its the season or because I haven't gotten jewelry in a long time but I found myself looking. I was never really a bling person you should say, I used to wear this music note necklace I got from my parents, and I have gotten promise rings from past Boyfriends, but I usually do not wear a lot of jewelry, and If I got get jewelry I want to be like special, not because I want it. A few years ago while I was with someone, he bought me a lot of jewelry, I never really worn them because they where really nice. But I also never worn ...

I love this time of year. Evrything seams magical, warm and joyful time of year. I dont know why, but I feel so safe around this time and I find that I always look more cheerful. Tonight as I was doing some reading and research on doing my family tree, just made me think of people who I miss either miles away, or who are no longer with us. I collect Bibles, I have a bunch that where family members and tonight i grabed my great grandma Idas ( paternal side) bible and I looked inside and see side notes and that weird perfume powder smell I smelled as I opened it. I think she died in 2001 just after mom and dads first year of marriage. I dont remeber much of her at all, but tonight I just feel close. I am thankful I have stuff from family who arent here anymore. It just makes me happy knowing I have memories and can share around the holidays.

My 15 year old brother has been bullied a bit yhis year, of course its his first year of high school, but sometimes theres a line. Damian has aspergers which is a lower form of autisum. He has special help like I did in school, like a study hall to help get his work done. My brother loves to draw, hes been drawing for as long as i cam remeber and he has gotten sp good. There was this kid in his class that thought he cpuld take a advantage and get him in trouble by drawing a penis and saying he did that. I dident know until me and Damian had a argument and I felt awful because I know thats not my brother, he dosent like talking, saying anything about that stuff at all, he dosent even luke seeing mom and dad kiss. Later in day it kinda made me remeber when I was bullied in middle school because of my religion. I was christion but strick form of it. We followed the bible much closer then anyone. Woman wore skirts, because it said to dress like a woman and that is what we did. Everyday I...

For the past couple of weeks, I have had the Stomic flu. I did not see my docter till last Thursday and he told me to just wait it out. I have been doing much better. Some nights when I cant go back to sleep, it makes me think, and as we are getting closer to our favorite holiday in the Family I just wanted to say a few things I am greatful for. I am greatful for the family I have. I wouldent want to replace anyone in it, I love being a Brown anf haveing great family members like my grandparents, aunts and uncles, cousins, and 3 little brothers. Im thankful for my home. I love my house, ice been living here since I was 10, but even befor that it still holds great memories from my childhood when great grandma and grandpa where alive. Im thankful for Ken. Every relashionship has its perks and fun memories. BUT  I am really thankful for Ken, he has seen my at my worse and my best, he has taken care of me when I had food posioning, hes gotten me soup, verners, rubbes my back when it...

Have you ever wondered or thought things where planned and thought of, but years after you think about it? At 8 I wanted to became a ballet dancer, but On Christmas of 2008 it changed. I had a patella knee dislocation caused from my hips growing while playing sports. I was heartbroken because I loved doing ballet, but trying to search for another thing to do with my life was a little harder. Being the only good singer out of the 6 is a little strange because I do not know where i got it from. But as I grew and had a couple of career classes I wanted to do with singing, maybe teach or join a group like choir. I singed in my church, I singed in my High school and college Choir, and a Event I've done 2 year in a row, The holiday pops. It never really hit me to do history till my first year of college when I was wondering what I was doing. It was hard, it made me think, maybe it was not for me. I have had teachers tell me that it might not be for me in high school. As I was sitti...

This past semester i kinda did not go back/ took a break from school, because 1 FASFA is a pain to do. 2 I had a lot of break downs because the career i wanted was in music but I do not think i was mentally challenged to take the step. But in the winter semester I am hope to talk to advisers about a career in history. Genealogy has always interested me but before I got into a accident and hurt my knee from dance I wanted to sing. I can sing but I also wanted to do more and when teacher pressuring me saying I would never get there, well they where right cause I broke down crying and trying to catch up with sleep. Besides the fact that I really am not good at school, but I really want to try because I want to be able to do something I enjoy. As I was reading about Genealogy and Archives, it made me really into the history and it was what made me want to do my family tree, I even got a Genealogy book for dummies so it get me going a bit, but just having the information I have gotten f...

Today I celebrate the many friends and family members I have lost but will always cherish the amazing memories with them. Many family members I never got to met but I still celebrate them because they had a amazing legacy to share with other, so there are a few people I would like to tell you about. My great grandfather Eugene fought in Korean war. I never knew him, but mom and grandma Sharon would always tell me story's about him when he was alive. He died a year after I was born (1997). He lived in Florida after he got divorced from great grandma in the 80's, but after I was born he always sent money to mom to help her take care of me. The first person I actually remember passing away is my great grandma brown. I was only 7 years old. I felt really close to her as my parents where dating then when they got married.I still have some flash backs about it it was worse in my teen years but there are parts I still remember. I was at my grandma Sharon house when my mom called a...

I had a good family time yesterday. As a 21 year old I went trick or treating. my Parents said I was too old but my brothers loved it. I did not get to go last year due to some bad luck but as a kid I loved trick or treating. On Sunday I went to crossroads village. I always loved going there, eve around holidays. The history is so rich there and all the buildings have a story that I love and enjoy. when I was there I daydreamed the day I have children and taking them to Crossroads village and telling them story's about the times I went as a child. Yesterday my dad was telling me the times he went trick or treating as a kid and the costumes he wore. As we walked around crossroads, my eyes open up as we saw the stands that told the history of the houses and I was walking in them, made me wish that I could live in beautiful places like that. I love old houses as much as I love old documents.

Day of the dead Day 1: I have a Mexican in me so some holidays my family celebrates. My biological father i believe is Mexican, but like i have said my grandmother was a single mom. But I am proud to have Mexican in my blood. I love everything about it, the music, the food and the people. I have never been to mexico but i would really love to, and some day find out my family name. Day 1 is usually for the children who have been lost and celebrated there life. I usually celebrate the people who are gone liken aunts uncles, cousins, great grandparents, even though they are not Mexican, i still think its a great way to celebrate the time i have had or even the life they have had here. Another thing i do is that i light a candle on the day Isis attacked France. I also have French in me and it felt like apart of me was torn, no matter the country even it still tears me up knowing there are people out there attacking people people. I sometimes light a candle for someone when they los...

Tonight was my grandfathers birthday. Made me see how lucky that my grandpa is my only grandpa. My moms mom never got married and was a single mom and had great grandmas help raising her, but grandpa brown is my hero. He's done everything to be one of the greatest men in my life besides my dad and Ken.  Grandpa has been through a lot growing up here in Goodrich and been through a lot during the Vietnam war. Sometimes I can see a proud face on when something happens like when I walked on stage or when I had dance shows.  My grandpa has shared a lot of his life with me and grandma Nancy too. Just hearing there story's and being apart of there family tree makes me proud knowing I am their granddaughter. Lately as I fill my tree and ask questions, it makes me question more about my grandparents. I want to be like them, tell my grandchildren my story's about my grandparents.

As i layed in bed this morning, I woundered how my life would be when i got married and had kids. How would my kids remeber me? How would they tell storys to there kids and there grandkids? It brought me back to a few years ago grandma nancy, my dads mom, always had storys about her parents and aunt and uncles and had pictures in boxs in the 2nd floor gustroom desk, and sometimes when I stayed the night I would look at the old pictures, there where always names and dates on the back of them, and sometimes i would ask grandma the story of them. Behind grandpas lazyboy is a big cano shelf and at the bottom layed books of pictures from his parents side of the family. I remember him telling me funny storys of him growing up in the house i live now. My house is a old farm house. Has been in the Family i say from the 30's ( gussing here) even though it dosent have no records that we know of, we know its over 100 years old bc we looked at the foundation and how it was built. Last night...

Intro By: Victoria Brown As a first time blogger i like to share to you me and my thoughts. Most of my blogs can be random but for others i would like to tell you the struggles of a early 21 year old and for others to relate to. I am part of a family of 6 with busy parents and 3 brothers. I was going to school for music but it kinda destroyed my dream with pressure, balance and stress. I wanted to become a choir teacher, but that all went down hill because of anxiety and depression. I've always had those two battling with me for as long as I can remember. But it got really bad after i graduated from high school. Another thing is I am a small town girl. always was. So going to school in Flint was different. I moved to a small village called Goodrich after my Great grandfather  passed away in 2006. I have a amazing bf named Ken or we call him Bubby. His nick name he has had since he was a kid like me. I was called Vicky or Vicky Lou, but very little people are aloud to call ...