Tis the season to be crying

I love this time of year. Evrything seams magical, warm and joyful time of year. I dont know why, but I feel so safe around this time and I find that I always look more cheerful.
Tonight as I was doing some reading and research on doing my family tree, just made me think of people who I miss either miles away, or who are no longer with us. I collect Bibles, I have a bunch that where family members and tonight i grabed my great grandma Idas ( paternal side) bible and I looked inside and see side notes and that weird perfume powder smell I smelled as I opened it. I think she died in 2001 just after mom and dads first year of marriage. I dont remeber much of her at all, but tonight I just feel close.
I am thankful I have stuff from family who arent here anymore. It just makes me happy knowing I have memories and can share around the holidays.

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