Family and then theres me.

I do believe everyone has thier own opion, unlike over 100 years ago, the woman was ment to look pretty and shoot out babies, haveing an a opion is great but to a exstent, which means that I agree people should be open, but not as long as it hurts people, when I was growing up I taught " If you have nothing nice to say, say nothing at all." which people arent putting into their day lifes and " It shows it" My famiyl is very old fashioned, but it also depends on how you raised, we celebrate christmas, but some familys dont use Santa, we dont celebarte those weird christian Holidays due to the fact of how our religion is. I was bullied for doing what my parents asked of me, it states in one of the 10 commandments to Honor they Mother and father, which is what I did, My parents sat me down the day befor 6th grade and told me I needed to act like more an adult and they In my religion woman wore skirts because pants were a mans clothing. So from thats day on I wore ski...

Happy Super bowl day everyone or at least it was, like many of you, I went out and got the snacks, the drinks and game face and ready to see what this super bowl would bring us. For the past 3 years that I have noticed, the Packers were the team I never voted or wooo ra for. I am very Sorry for those who "enjoyed" it, but that FUCKEN SUCKED. LIKE WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT!?!?!?!?!?! It was like walking into a disaster zone on a runway at Victoria Secret events. I couldn't even finish the rest of the game I was so disappointed in Marron 5 and the rappers I don't even know, They even sucked just as bad because there was no CA-BAAAAMM like Lady Gaga, LMFAO, and Justin Timberlake, Now I am not such a big Timberlake fan, but at least it was interesting unlike the who big ass M for the stage and didn't have a WOW factor into to it. I hope the fans get their cash back for the dumbest "concert" on the planet earth ft. The Packers.

I know almost in the 2nd month of 2019. I have to say (Knocking on wood) it has so far turned into the silver lining year. It has been about almost 6 months since my great grandmother has past and reasoning I have not be blogging or even writing is the fact that everytime that I do write even in a couple of books it reminds me of my great grandmother, and my throat tightens up and tears build up, Christmas was the hardest without her.... after opening my presents at my home for the first time with my boyfriend, I went into our room and cried, I always loved calling her on every holiday and talking to her. Another hard part, my cousin, we will call her cousin Betty passed shockingly and un exspectedly on thanksgivng night from a massive heart attack. My heart was exstreamly broken and sad part was I missed her funeral due to issues being brought up at home. My mentle health has been doing alot better to the fact I am on wellbutron, I am exstreamly h...

When I babysit a couple of kids, one of them doesn't go onto the bus till later so usually I watch the news in the morning. This morning I saw one of the singers from Destiny's child speak out about her story of depression, and honestly, I felt like myself after I have seen that. On Good Morning America, One of the answers were interviewing her. She said that being depressed or having depression is tabooed and it agrees with her. In our society, it is on some levels tabooed or ignored, and in some cases ignored or even bullied for the fact we are facing these things and in fear being bullied for speaking our thought of depression. I'm not afraid to admit I have depression, I am always depressed, I try to do things or do things to help it, it does help, I was on a medication called Lexapro my family dr prescribed to me. After a while I felt like I had no emotions, I don't use it unless I really can't control my emotions or had a server panic attacks which is barel...

My 22nd birthday is in 2 days, Usaly when my birthday rolls around Im like a little kid with candy or a awsome new toy. This Birthday is differnt. This is the first birthday with out my parents wakeing me up and wishing me a happy birthday since I move 20 mins from them. My great grandmother who has past in almost 2 months ago wont be calling me on my Birthday. When she lived in Michigan she either called and she always bpught me presents. When she moved to Texas, she always made time to call me around my birthday. Since her passing  I havent been the same, Its a wee bit differnt then other family memebers passing since shes been there since the day of my birth. Last time I lost someone who ment as much as she did I was 7 years old. I have lost some family who did mean alot, I dont entirely understand why it hit me so hard when I was 7. But Today I know why loseing her.

I somewhat remember 9/11. I was only 4, just before my 5th birthday. I did ask my mom what happened, I was at home with my mom, she was pregnant and was watching tv. My mom was on the phone with a bunch of people that day, my dad was at work and came home early. Every year at school we always sat in silence some stupid students even said why do we still have to do it. I do it because I'm lucky, I'm lucky none of my family was hurt and they were all home safely. We celebrate for those who didn't make it, you didn't come home safely, who didn't make it or come home from finding others, and for those who crashed, saved others, and for those who thought it was going to be a normal day when in reality it changed not those who lost the family member that day but the world, the United States, and every student who sits in class who sits in silence. Today is the day not only to be thankful for what we have or lucky to be alive but also for those who sacrifice their liv...