Happy BELATED Newyears.. I think?
I know almost in the 2nd month of 2019. I have to say (Knocking on wood) it has so far turned into the silver lining year. It has been about almost 6 months since my great grandmother has past and reasoning I have not be blogging or even writing is the fact that everytime that I do write even in a couple of books it reminds me of my great grandmother, and my throat tightens up and tears build up, Christmas was the hardest without her.... after opening my presents at my home for the first time with my boyfriend, I went into our room and cried, I always loved calling her on every holiday and talking to her.
Another hard part, my cousin, we will call her cousin Betty passed shockingly and un exspectedly on thanksgivng night from a massive heart attack. My heart was exstreamly broken and sad part was I missed her funeral due to issues being brought up at home.
My mentle health has been doing alot better to the fact I am on wellbutron, I am exstreamly happier, only part is that it doesnt help with anexity attacks and stress from it, but haveing my boyfriend hold me and takeing long hot showers does do the trick.
For the past 5 months I have been stuck on a family memeber on my family tree... my 3rd great grandmother B. was an orphan in england in the mid 19th centrury and has been driving me up the wall because I really want to find her and learn more of our family histrory, I promised my great grandmother befor her passing Id try to find her since its her grandmother. Spmetimes when I a, frustterated I feel like I am being tugged to find something in my family, and I know she wouldent want me to give up, and I really dont want to break her promise, she maybe dead, dosent mean she can drop out if heave to kick my ass with he ghostly stubberness.
Another hard part, my cousin, we will call her cousin Betty passed shockingly and un exspectedly on thanksgivng night from a massive heart attack. My heart was exstreamly broken and sad part was I missed her funeral due to issues being brought up at home.
My mentle health has been doing alot better to the fact I am on wellbutron, I am exstreamly happier, only part is that it doesnt help with anexity attacks and stress from it, but haveing my boyfriend hold me and takeing long hot showers does do the trick.
For the past 5 months I have been stuck on a family memeber on my family tree... my 3rd great grandmother B. was an orphan in england in the mid 19th centrury and has been driving me up the wall because I really want to find her and learn more of our family histrory, I promised my great grandmother befor her passing Id try to find her since its her grandmother. Spmetimes when I a, frustterated I feel like I am being tugged to find something in my family, and I know she wouldent want me to give up, and I really dont want to break her promise, she maybe dead, dosent mean she can drop out if heave to kick my ass with he ghostly stubberness.
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