Battles

When I babysit a couple of kids, one of them doesn't go onto the bus till later so usually I watch the news in the morning. This morning I saw one of the singers from Destiny's child speak out about her story of depression, and honestly, I felt like myself after I have seen that.

On Good Morning America, One of the answers were interviewing her. She said that being depressed or having depression is tabooed and it agrees with her. In our society, it is on some levels tabooed or ignored, and in some cases ignored or even bullied for the fact we are facing these things and in fear being bullied for speaking our thought of depression.
I'm not afraid to admit I have depression, I am always depressed, I try to do things or do things to help it, it does help, I was on a medication called Lexapro my family dr prescribed to me. After a while I felt like I had no emotions, I don't use it unless I really can't control my emotions or had a server panic attacks which is barely now. when I was a teen I had a hard time controling my emotions as I was growing up I was dumped because I couldn't control my emotions due to being depressed all the time.
The last relationship I was in he told me lies at first to not hurt me as much, but he finally told me was the fact he didn't want to be with me because of my mental illness, he couldent handle my depression and should find someone who was broken like me.
At the time it hurt, a lot. But I pulled myself together and found someone better and who needed love and care and was broken as me and has helped me as best as he can and every day I fall harder for him for the fact he has helped me so much and has helped me battle myself.