Stay Golden Ponyboy
In mid-August, my great-grandma Grappin had passed away. And lately, I've been thinking about her a lot. I was very close to her and had an amazing bond and friendship I could ever ask for. People have been telling me lately shes only my grandmother and I should just move on and get over it, or it happens. The last death that had the most effect on me before hers was great grandma brown, and the person who I ran to was her. But as I looked around me and all the friends and family who were easily there for me didn't text, call or said a single word to me. Only friends who did were only 3 of them from high school and my man.
My other thought was being thankful for the time I had with her, I have to say 22 years of a beautiful friendship was a time worth while of love. I loved this woman till the day she passed and the last words we exchanged a month before her passing was I Love You. I was full of a little regret not calling enough or visiting her in Texas, but I was also relieved of all the blessed memories and pictures of her that I have and will cherish till I die.
At the time of need no matter what has happened, a family will always come together in a deep need of sorrow. I went to check on my mom and I gave her a hug before I left back home, I can tell you hugging my mom was needed for that horrible sad day.
When she was here I had written her many letters, even though there were times where she couldn't, I still did know I made her happy and made her day. I had found a letter I had written her 2 months ago which I have meant to send to her which I didn't and it killed me inside a lot.
The best I can give to you when someone who you were close to passes is, don't regret, regret will only hurt you more inside. Don't bottle it in, It's alright to cry and cry and cry till your eyeball hurts, there will always be people and animals who will hold you or cuddle you till your ok in your own time and get a hold of your self in your own time.
Offer help, they may not need you but people will always share the thought of you helping and then they may need you not physically but to talk to as a friend.
Fill your circle, You will know who your true friends are when someone you care passes, but that circle you have of your closes family member and friends are the ones who not only depend on you for support but from them as well, I always had a wide range of friends, but over the years it became a small cluster of people who I know will need me somedays as I needed them now.
Rather you have a partner or not, it is ok to say how you fell, For 3 weeks straight I cried in my man's arms saying I missed her, expressing how you feel can help someone understand and will try there best to understand and to do what they can to help you.
My other thought was being thankful for the time I had with her, I have to say 22 years of a beautiful friendship was a time worth while of love. I loved this woman till the day she passed and the last words we exchanged a month before her passing was I Love You. I was full of a little regret not calling enough or visiting her in Texas, but I was also relieved of all the blessed memories and pictures of her that I have and will cherish till I die.
At the time of need no matter what has happened, a family will always come together in a deep need of sorrow. I went to check on my mom and I gave her a hug before I left back home, I can tell you hugging my mom was needed for that horrible sad day.
When she was here I had written her many letters, even though there were times where she couldn't, I still did know I made her happy and made her day. I had found a letter I had written her 2 months ago which I have meant to send to her which I didn't and it killed me inside a lot.
The best I can give to you when someone who you were close to passes is, don't regret, regret will only hurt you more inside. Don't bottle it in, It's alright to cry and cry and cry till your eyeball hurts, there will always be people and animals who will hold you or cuddle you till your ok in your own time and get a hold of your self in your own time.
Offer help, they may not need you but people will always share the thought of you helping and then they may need you not physically but to talk to as a friend.
Fill your circle, You will know who your true friends are when someone you care passes, but that circle you have of your closes family member and friends are the ones who not only depend on you for support but from them as well, I always had a wide range of friends, but over the years it became a small cluster of people who I know will need me somedays as I needed them now.
Rather you have a partner or not, it is ok to say how you fell, For 3 weeks straight I cried in my man's arms saying I missed her, expressing how you feel can help someone understand and will try there best to understand and to do what they can to help you.
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