Family and then theres me.

I somewhat remember 9/11. I was only 4, just before my 5th birthday. I did ask my mom what happened, I was at home with my mom, she was pregnant and was watching tv. My mom was on the phone with a bunch of people that day, my dad was at work and came home early. Every year at school we always sat in silence some stupid students even said why do we still have to do it. I do it because I'm lucky, I'm lucky none of my family was hurt and they were all home safely. We celebrate for those who didn't make it, you didn't come home safely, who didn't make it or come home from finding others, and for those who crashed, saved others, and for those who thought it was going to be a normal day when in reality it changed not those who lost the family member that day but the world, the United States, and every student who sits in class who sits in silence. Today is the day not only to be thankful for what we have or lucky to be alive but also for those who sacrifice their liv...

Lately, My Emotions and thoughts have been all over the place, some are good and some are bad, Most have been the focus of my family's history. When family has told you about things that have happened or family who tells you the history. One thought was cancer. Cancer runs in my family and when I get my yearly check to make sure and bring it up. My great great Great grandma Baker died when my great grandma was a small child from cancer in the 40's due to lack of updated medication like today. I believe at least 1 out of 8 brothers my great grandma has had Colon cancer and great grandma had cancer in her uterus twice. Another factor I have found out was Alcoholism. My great grandfather Grappin was acholic. I'm not really sure what started it but I can guess it was the Korean war. I remember learning about the Korean war in high school and hearing stories about how bad he was when he was there, He freaked out when he was on the battlefield so he became a medic and drove t...

In mid-August, my great-grandma Grappin had passed away. And lately, I've been thinking about her a lot. I was very close to her and had an amazing bond and friendship I could ever ask for. People have been telling me lately shes only my grandmother and I should just move on and get over it, or it happens. The last death that had the most effect on me before hers was great grandma brown, and the person who I ran to was her. But as I looked around me and all the friends and family who were easily there for me didn't text, call or said a single word to me. Only friends who did were only 3 of them from high school and my man. My other thought was being thankful for the time I had with her, I have to say 22 years of a beautiful friendship was a time worth while of love. I loved this woman till the day she passed and the last words we exchanged a month before her passing was I Love You. I was full of a little regret not calling enough or visiting her in Texas, but I was also reli...

So as my current relationship, I learned just before we dated he had the same last name as me, Brown. I knew it was a very common last names, like Smith, Miller and many others. Before we dated we made sure we weren't related. As it turned out we arent. Today after about 16 years after my great grandma had passed away I went to the cemetery to where she is buried, just trying to find great grandma and grandpa was hard and had to go while they closed, but I know on a longer brighter day I know I will find them. While I was there I did call my mom because she remembered better than me, But she only told me what grandma and grandpa told her, They couldn't find them when they wanted to show their cousins. But as I was looking and noticeing the grave sites and names, it reminded me of a poem I have read about a year ago about Family, Some family you may never know but you share your blood and names with them and it brings you closer to family and who you are. Today I ran into at...