Family and then theres me.

Happy holidays Everyone!! Sorry I havent posted in a while, Ive been been busy with the holidays and helping my family and spending time with people. I have had a great Christmas with my parents and brothers and had a amazing dinner. So todays blog I just really want to relfect on family and tradition. As kids we did the santa cookies and milk and always opened the only present on christmas eve, for some years now we do matching pjs from like marvel, DC, star wars, stuff like that, and have a prime rib for dinner amd of corse get blankets from grandma and grandpa. This year though I think we may have started a new tradition. Theres this family we have known for years and they have two very sweet kids. And for christmas eve we bought the turkey while they smoked it for hours. I could her angesl sing as I toke that first bite. After a while we where all playing games and I helped there son put togeather his lego set we have gotten him for christmas. It was just a nice night besides t...

Have you ever felt kinda proud that your family Served in the Military, but you also feel so sad because of you learned in High School how horrible the war is, well thats how I feel. Last night I talked to my great grandma about her family, I needed more info on her Family and Great Grandpa Grappin. She told me how her Grandmother was a Orphan in England and how she had a family and gotten married then came to Canada, whats really sad is that she died from cancer in 1944 when my great grandma was a kid. My great grandmas mom met her father during WW1 and he fought for Canada and had the first 3 children in canada and had the rest including my great grandma in Clio, Michigan. My great grandma told me how a few brothers out of 8 of her brothers have died from different types of cancer. Kinda made me wounder last night as I was watching TV if I should do those DNA test that is all over TV. I have been wanting to do it for a while because I do not know the other half of my biological f...

As I have written before about my depression, half the fun is having flashbacks. I was a pretty OK kid, but I had a lot of bad memories growing up. For example, when my maternal Grandmother lived in Michigan, she lived by herself in Flint. She work at a Laundry place for these old couple who have owned it for years. One night she was working late and the store got robbed and they held her at gun point. It scared me knowing as a kid something bad could have happen to her. about maybe a few months late she moved to taxes where everyone was. Lately though I have been having a flashback from when I was 8. I was reading a book for Genealogy and it said the best thing you can do is to write a time line about you, yourself. As I was writing it, for weeks I couldn't figure out what why I couldn't remember the year 2004, Its very personal to me and I wont spare you the details, but it sudden clicked with my flashback, and I guess i must have blocked out that whole year and memory, I w...

Last week my best friend from high school called me saying she got engaged, I thought I was going to cry for her and of course I was happy for her. She was in a relationship with her boyfriend for a little over 3 years and watching someone you care so much makes you happy. Over the phone she told me about her ring, which resembles a couple of her promise rings she has gotten in the past, lately myself I have been looking at jewelry ads, I do not know if its the season or because I haven't gotten jewelry in a long time but I found myself looking. I was never really a bling person you should say, I used to wear this music note necklace I got from my parents, and I have gotten promise rings from past Boyfriends, but I usually do not wear a lot of jewelry, and If I got get jewelry I want to be like special, not because I want it. A few years ago while I was with someone, he bought me a lot of jewelry, I never really worn them because they where really nice. But I also never worn ...

I love this time of year. Evrything seams magical, warm and joyful time of year. I dont know why, but I feel so safe around this time and I find that I always look more cheerful. Tonight as I was doing some reading and research on doing my family tree, just made me think of people who I miss either miles away, or who are no longer with us. I collect Bibles, I have a bunch that where family members and tonight i grabed my great grandma Idas ( paternal side) bible and I looked inside and see side notes and that weird perfume powder smell I smelled as I opened it. I think she died in 2001 just after mom and dads first year of marriage. I dont remeber much of her at all, but tonight I just feel close. I am thankful I have stuff from family who arent here anymore. It just makes me happy knowing I have memories and can share around the holidays.